Sometimes there's things even glue won't fix. Sometimes there's hurts that take forever to heal. Sometimes the pain is just for a moment. And sometimes it feels like the brokenness can never be fixed.
Let me just tell you right here and now, I'm a crier. I cry when I see other people cry. I cry during sad movies. I occasionally cry of happiness. I cry when I'm sad. I cry when I'm mad. I cry when I'm hurt. I cry when I feel broken.
I feel like personally our culture says that it's okay to show your emotion and your hurt but really it's hard. I feel like we all feel as though if we show our jagged edges and gaps everyone will see. And they'll judge and they won't accept us and no one will understand. I know I feel that way. It's hard to open up. Especially when I really open up I start to cry. My mascara runs (I know I'm a girly girl and maybe that's super ridiculous but I still don't like it) and my nose runs and my eyes get all puffy and red and you can tell I've been crying.
Times in my life I have been hurt by people I opened up to and trusted. I've also learned that when I open up, more times than the hurtful ones, I've been so blessed because of it. There's such an emphasis on perfection that when you show your scars and your imperfection, people notice. In a good way. They see the cracks and realize they're not alone. It's a wonderful thing to know you're not alone. And let me tell you, YOU ARE NOT ALONE! There's people hurting in the ways you are too. It's hard to see behind the walls we put up but once you take them down, the healing can become. When you let people inside your walls, they can bring their loving arms and words of encouragement and their fixing materials.
When I've been vulnerable to people in my life that I admire and trust and are women of God, they've prayed for me, lifted me up, and let me know I'm not alone. I'm not the only one who's struggling. I'm not the only one who's sick and tired and feels like I can go on.
Know that you ARE NOT ALONE!
If you feel like there's no one for you to open up to, let me let you in on a secret. #1. Pretty much 99% of the time your parents (YES I SAID PARENTS AND I AM A TEENAGE GIRL) have wisdom and knowledge they can't wait to share with you! Your parents love you more than anybody else and will sit and talk with you and listen to you and share things they've learned and I know if you just listen too you'll see what a blessing they are in your life. Okay #2. God is listening. Most people probably think Jesus has no clue what hurting is like. I mean he's God and perfect and so he probably never felt the pain that I feel, right? Right? Wrong. Sorry to burst your bubble. But even Jesus felt hurt. He feels hurt. He cried. He felt angry. He had emotions. He was happy. He even felt alone and like God had left him right before he was crucified on the cross. Now there's somethin'! Jesus understands when you feel alone, when you feel like no one wants you or loves you, when you fail a test or even class, when you feel disappointed with yourself. Jesus felt the loneliness so that you never ever have to. As a Child of God, God will never leave you or harm you! He's got your back and understands your problems. #3. This might sound cliche or not good in your ears, but there are people in your church that love you and are trustworthy. They are there. Chances are that there's at least one person in your church that has gone through something similar to you and I KNOW there is at least one person who is willing to take time to just listen to you and lift you up.
When I cry, I almost always try to cover it up. I feel like people stare at me and wonder, "Oh what's wrong with her?" but mostly when I cry, some one who was sent from God to me asks me what's wrong or what's up or just sits there and maybe cries with me or just sits there comforting me or prays for me. They almost always pray. And I believe in the healing power of prayer. It lets me know that I am NOT ALONE.
I guess what I want to say here is that it's okay to be broken. It's okay to be upset. Things get better. It's totally okay to cry because sometimes that's the only vent for all the hurt to go out of. Jesus understands. And more than anything else YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!
If you're feeling broken and a bit dusty listen to this.
John 11:35 Jesus wept.
Matthew 27:45-46 Now from noon until three, darkness came over all the land. At about three o’clock Jesus shouted with a loud voice, “Eli, Eli, lema sabachthani?” that is, “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?
Mark 3:21 When his family heard this they went out to restrain him, for they said, “He is out of his mind.”
John 7:5 For not even his own brothers believed in him.
Let me just tell you right here and now, I'm a crier. I cry when I see other people cry. I cry during sad movies. I occasionally cry of happiness. I cry when I'm sad. I cry when I'm mad. I cry when I'm hurt. I cry when I feel broken.
I feel like personally our culture says that it's okay to show your emotion and your hurt but really it's hard. I feel like we all feel as though if we show our jagged edges and gaps everyone will see. And they'll judge and they won't accept us and no one will understand. I know I feel that way. It's hard to open up. Especially when I really open up I start to cry. My mascara runs (I know I'm a girly girl and maybe that's super ridiculous but I still don't like it) and my nose runs and my eyes get all puffy and red and you can tell I've been crying.
Times in my life I have been hurt by people I opened up to and trusted. I've also learned that when I open up, more times than the hurtful ones, I've been so blessed because of it. There's such an emphasis on perfection that when you show your scars and your imperfection, people notice. In a good way. They see the cracks and realize they're not alone. It's a wonderful thing to know you're not alone. And let me tell you, YOU ARE NOT ALONE! There's people hurting in the ways you are too. It's hard to see behind the walls we put up but once you take them down, the healing can become. When you let people inside your walls, they can bring their loving arms and words of encouragement and their fixing materials.
When I've been vulnerable to people in my life that I admire and trust and are women of God, they've prayed for me, lifted me up, and let me know I'm not alone. I'm not the only one who's struggling. I'm not the only one who's sick and tired and feels like I can go on.
Know that you ARE NOT ALONE!
If you feel like there's no one for you to open up to, let me let you in on a secret. #1. Pretty much 99% of the time your parents (YES I SAID PARENTS AND I AM A TEENAGE GIRL) have wisdom and knowledge they can't wait to share with you! Your parents love you more than anybody else and will sit and talk with you and listen to you and share things they've learned and I know if you just listen too you'll see what a blessing they are in your life. Okay #2. God is listening. Most people probably think Jesus has no clue what hurting is like. I mean he's God and perfect and so he probably never felt the pain that I feel, right? Right? Wrong. Sorry to burst your bubble. But even Jesus felt hurt. He feels hurt. He cried. He felt angry. He had emotions. He was happy. He even felt alone and like God had left him right before he was crucified on the cross. Now there's somethin'! Jesus understands when you feel alone, when you feel like no one wants you or loves you, when you fail a test or even class, when you feel disappointed with yourself. Jesus felt the loneliness so that you never ever have to. As a Child of God, God will never leave you or harm you! He's got your back and understands your problems. #3. This might sound cliche or not good in your ears, but there are people in your church that love you and are trustworthy. They are there. Chances are that there's at least one person in your church that has gone through something similar to you and I KNOW there is at least one person who is willing to take time to just listen to you and lift you up.
When I cry, I almost always try to cover it up. I feel like people stare at me and wonder, "Oh what's wrong with her?" but mostly when I cry, some one who was sent from God to me asks me what's wrong or what's up or just sits there and maybe cries with me or just sits there comforting me or prays for me. They almost always pray. And I believe in the healing power of prayer. It lets me know that I am NOT ALONE.
I guess what I want to say here is that it's okay to be broken. It's okay to be upset. Things get better. It's totally okay to cry because sometimes that's the only vent for all the hurt to go out of. Jesus understands. And more than anything else YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!
If you're feeling broken and a bit dusty listen to this.
John 11:35 Jesus wept.
Matthew 27:45-46 Now from noon until three, darkness came over all the land. At about three o’clock Jesus shouted with a loud voice, “Eli, Eli, lema sabachthani?” that is, “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?
Mark 3:21 When his family heard this they went out to restrain him, for they said, “He is out of his mind.”
John 7:5 For not even his own brothers believed in him.
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