So maybe I shouldn't be writing this at 12:43 am in my very emotional state I'm in right now. It's been a little bit oh a doozy of a week to say the least. I've cried a lot and laughed and cried and laughed and gotten not as much sleep as I need and what put me over the edge to blubbering away to my mom on our deck while the mosquitoes ate us alive was almost running over a deer while driving home a few hours ago. Let me just saw thank goodness for moms, sweat shirts that are okay if mascara and tears get all over them, the stars at night, and the wondering wicker love seat on our deck. I don't know where I'd sit in the summer if it weren't for that thing. Let's just saw\y I'm having a trust issue right now with one person. And that person is God.
I'm Facebook chatting (yes people still do that every so often) with one of my best friends and I just kinda vented to her about what I'm going through and how hard it is to trust God. It's not easy folks! It's hard to give up control and all my insecurities and just leave it in God's hands. He gives me every example of his strength and power and control. Still I'm just a stubborn mule. The thing that really gets me is fear. The Enemy gives me every example too of things I could be afraid of. One thing I'm realizing is that those "examples" from the Devil are examples of people trying to control their lives and not God.
That's one thing about the Devil. You. Are. Smarter. Than. Him. When. You. Have. JESUS.
These things he tries to throw at me are really things God is going to and is already using to break me free from bondage of fear I'm in.
I feel like everyday God shows me ways that he is in control. The sun rises. I'm breathing. My family is healthy. I got through the school year. I have tons of blessings around me called friends and family.
Honesty: Sometimes in my thick head, I can't see the goodness around me in a certain situation and it makes me doubt the goodness of God's plan.
Honesty also: Sometimes I'm stupid. And sometimes I read Bible verses like this
Since by this time it's 1 am and I'm a little out of it sorry for anything that doesn't make sense.
Anyways. What I'm trying to say is, it's HARD to trust God. I think everyone struggles with it. Well maybe not everyone but I sure do. I struggle with trust and fear and so if you struggle with fear like I do, then you should memorize these verses because honestly they comfort me so much.
John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid!" (Jesus)
Matthew 17:7 But Jesus came and touched them. "Get up," he said. "Don't be afraid."
Luke 12:32 "Do not be afraid, little flock for your Father has been pleased to give you the kingdom."
Mark 4:40 He said to his disciples, "Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?"
I'm Facebook chatting (yes people still do that every so often) with one of my best friends and I just kinda vented to her about what I'm going through and how hard it is to trust God. It's not easy folks! It's hard to give up control and all my insecurities and just leave it in God's hands. He gives me every example of his strength and power and control. Still I'm just a stubborn mule. The thing that really gets me is fear. The Enemy gives me every example too of things I could be afraid of. One thing I'm realizing is that those "examples" from the Devil are examples of people trying to control their lives and not God.
That's one thing about the Devil. You. Are. Smarter. Than. Him. When. You. Have. JESUS.
These things he tries to throw at me are really things God is going to and is already using to break me free from bondage of fear I'm in.
I feel like everyday God shows me ways that he is in control. The sun rises. I'm breathing. My family is healthy. I got through the school year. I have tons of blessings around me called friends and family.
Honesty: Sometimes in my thick head, I can't see the goodness around me in a certain situation and it makes me doubt the goodness of God's plan.
Honesty also: Sometimes I'm stupid. And sometimes I read Bible verses like this
Psalm 23:6 Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me all the days of my life, and I will live in the house of the LORD forever.
and this
Jeremiah 29:14 I will be found by you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back from captivity. I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile.”
and it smacks me in the face saying, "WOMAN! DON'T YOU GET IT? MY PLAN IS WAY BETTER THAN YOURS GET OVER YOURSELF! I MAKE PROMISES AND KEEP THEM! "Since by this time it's 1 am and I'm a little out of it sorry for anything that doesn't make sense.
Anyways. What I'm trying to say is, it's HARD to trust God. I think everyone struggles with it. Well maybe not everyone but I sure do. I struggle with trust and fear and so if you struggle with fear like I do, then you should memorize these verses because honestly they comfort me so much.
John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid!" (Jesus)
Matthew 17:7 But Jesus came and touched them. "Get up," he said. "Don't be afraid."
Luke 12:32 "Do not be afraid, little flock for your Father has been pleased to give you the kingdom."
Mark 4:40 He said to his disciples, "Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?"
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